25.2.10

update on burned-down house.

so i got a ride down to my boyfriend's ex-house. the place is wrecked. the siding melted, the windows blew out - practically the only thing that wasn't completely eaten up was the garage, somehow everything inside the garage is fine.

but clothes, band gear, game systems, a sound system, books, everything else - was just gone. including my boyfriend's laptop, which had all his art on it, and all his pens and pencils and his sketchbook, plus a custom guitar he was borrowing from someone else.

and the death count was not entirely accurate: one lizard made it out.
ironically, leanne was trying to get rid of the lizards. she even offered them to me, a couple weeks back - but my mom didn't want reptiles in the house. yeah so somehow Brindy was unscathed. though his friend Stryper was not so lucky.

and now there are three sad little boxes in the backyard - one bigger one and two smaller ones, covered with a loud pink and brown afghan. RIP Trinity, Sage, Nike, Strongbow, Stryper, and two other cats whose names i don't know.

(a picture of Trinity, taken on friday.)

leanne is completely devastated right now, the boys are pretty upset too, and when i saw him yesterday, it hadn't quite hit jeff yet. so again, KEEP THEM IN YOUR PRAYERS - pretty please?

24.2.10

Not a joke.

so i just got a call from a friend - my boyfriend's house just burned to the ground while he was at work. the renters who were living downstairs are in hospital for smoke inhalation, and leanne was on her way to vanc. isl. to speak at a youth conference, so she's heading back now.
but for sure jeff, leanne, her two boys, and the renters and their four small kids have all lost everything - computers, band gear, plus a total death count of two lizards, three dogs, and three cats.

so if any of you blog readers pray, PLEASE DO.

question:

so it's just under a month til the first anniversary of this blog.
anybody want a special post?
eg. giveaway
photoshoot
poem
meme
???????
or just a regular sort of happy-birthday-to-squelchbaker's-blog?

help me out, here, people.

23.2.10

laptop piano? no.

so i've been wondering how to follow up on my last post.
but this'll do...
... dad fixed my laptop!! woot!
my dear brother sat on it one day about a year ago and cracked the screen right across. i used it for a while after, cos the crack only impeded me a very little - but then the black area started to grow somehow. so it became a big problem. so i tucked the laptop away somewhere in the hope that i'd either manage to buy a new screen, or buy a new and better laptop.
but recently, i found a new screen for about 30 bucks, i think, including shipping, off ebay.
and today, dad put it on the laptop for me. so i'm pretty excited. the silly thing is as slow as you please, and the screen resolution is frustratingly small - but heck, at least it works, right?
and then i spent a bit of the evening trying to put a piano together - i put in a whole bunch of ... bridle straps? ... i think that's what they're called. anyway, i have long skinny fingers, so i can do fiddly bridle strap stuff really easily. so that's why i was helping.
and it'll be brilliant to finally have a piano again.
but i should head for bed, i'm yawning my face off. so goodnight, all.

18.2.10

thought of you

i thought of you today -
the way your eyes light up when you see me
the way your smile gets just that much bigger

i thought of how you hold my hand.
i love it when you do that.

and i love how you always listen whenever i'm upset
i love how you sneak up behind me to give me a hug
and my heart skips a beat or three
when you tell me i'm beautiful.

or when i fall asleep on your shoulder in the car
and you gently touch my cheek to wake me up.
i love that too.

i love it so much, that i would fall asleep on purpose if i could,
just so you would wake me up like that.

i even love little stupid things about you.
like your eyelashes.
honestly, who falls in love with eyelashes? i guess i do.
because i think yours are the most beautiful eyelashes i've ever seen.

i absolutely adore your shoulders. and your back.
and your hands. i really really love your hands.
i know, it's strange. but it's true.

you say i'm beautiful - would it sound odd to say i think you are too?

but i really really really love how much you care.
i love that you ask me how i'm doing
i love how you're always there when i need you
and that you get just that little bit jealous.

i even love that you cried
when i told you how much you hurt me.
because it tells me that you really didn't mean to,
and that you would never hurt me on purpose.

i love the way you hold me when i need a hug
i love the way you offer to fetch me a glass of water - even though i have two feet, i could do it
i love how we can talk about the strangest stuff.

hell, i just love you.

and i thought of you today - and now i miss you.

© Elizabeth Klassen 2010

17.2.10

short update

so i apologise that i've been so quiet on the blogging front lately - not much has been going on on this side of the interwebs, besides a lot of gratuitous and abortive corset drafting.
oh yeah and i got to see a pair of russian ice dancers practicing at a local rec centre.
and i bought some fabric secondhand today, some butter-yellow asian brocade with carps on it, and a giant piece of reddish cotton with a big weave, like linen.
so yeah. that's about it for me.

13.2.10

the result of the translation a few posts back:

coming up....

so v-day is coming up soon. as in tomorrow.
ah, valentine's. the day of red and pink, roses and hearts and chocolate, little sweet sayings and tiny cards given out by elementary school kids to all their classmates, the day of couples everywhere. and, up til now, the day which i had a kind of dread for - because no one ever gave me a little tiny card (except for my best friend jessi, who gave me a little tiny v-card most years until i was about 12), or chocolates, or roses, or ... you name it, i didn't get it, cos i was always single. it was kind of depressing.
but this year - well, i'm not so depressed this year.
this year i get to share v-day with my jeff. i can't wait. :)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

11.2.10

thoughts.

i learned two things today.

first - despite the tastiness of homemade bread, it doesn't do grilled cheese sandwiches too well. too soft.

second - trying to dry your clothes with an iron because you're in a hurry - while it looks cool to see the steam coming off the clothes - doesn't work as well as you'd think.

a fumbling translation.

Nan emyn orthon i chent nín – man sad tôl athae enni?

O Hir tôl athae enni, Ceredir Menel ah Amar.

Eru u-davatha na talt dál lín – tira or le, ah u-deria;
tira or Israel ah u-deria, u-ben awartha hain.

E Chir tira or le – e Chir na gwath lín an fair lín;
i anor o arad u-harnatha le, u-ben i ithil o dú.

Eru hebiath...a le o naeg - tiratha or chuil lín;
e Chir tiratha tuliel a glenniel lín, hi a trí uir.

I laer o Meldarion, gwanod 121.

10.2.10

yes, i do have political opinions, as a matter of fact. also other stuff.

so. um. life is not as busy as it used to be, when i had a job - but i AM looking for jobs, so it's not like i'm sitting on my butt all the time. had the one interview, applied for two more jobs, haven't heard back from the interview people yet. so i'm assuming they don't want me. oh well, that's life.

oh and got to see the olympic torch run through a nearby town on sunday, that was kind of cool - but i still think the whole thing is ridiculously hyped up, and i'm still not exactly a fan of the whole olympics in vancouver plan. they all said, "we'll make enough revenue to cover the expenses, it'll be a boost to the economy, we'll get a bunch of extra business... blah blah blah..."
heh. yeah. riiiiight.
they'll not make enough off it to cover HALF the expenses of the damn thing.
PLUS with the HST (which, by the way, stands for Highly Stupid Tax, or possibly Harmonized Shit - not quite sure yet) coming in in july, the economy around here will likely have itself a proper nose-dive, with a face-plant at the end of it.
as adelai niska would say, "yes, you have had, you say, good times! i see that!"
so yeah.

in other news, band practice is tomorrow (yay!) and apparently we're changing our name back from Ekliptika to Psalm 91. which i think is a good idea, cos in some ways, "ekliptika" never felt like the band's name to me. i'm having so much fun though, i've always dreamed of being in a band, and now here it is, just dropped in my lap, and i'm enjoying every minute of it.

anyways, i think that's it for now. toodles, all.

8.2.10

frustration

sometimes i just want to hide in a hole
a deep dark dank hole where no one can find me
a dusty black hole with plenty of spiders to keep me company
a hidey-hole in the middle of nowhere.

sometimes i want to smack myself upside the head
and do over a day where i made mistakes
i get so frustrated by the dumb things i do
i want to put myself in time-out
so i won't do anything stupid ever again.

© Elizabeth Klassen 2010

4.2.10

job interview ... (a.k.a. part II)

... is over, and went pretty well, on the whole, i hope....
of course, like anyone else, now that it's over i'm worried that i might have said the wrong thing, answered questions wrong, talked too much, or some other problem happened, whereby i would not get the job after all .... and to some extent i'm not sure if i want the job, cos it's all cash all the time, and i never liked cash when i was at winners. but it is what it is, and if i'm meant to have it, i'll get it. so there.
deep breath.
they said they'd get in touch with me pretty quick, cos they're short-staffed at present. and i might even get full-time. which would be awesome. i think. if i don't burn out first. but at least i'd never be there past 6.30 in the evening. which would be sweet! especially after winners, when i'd get out at 10 at night. argh. that was not fun. anyways. that's my life and update for the day.
toodles, all.

job interview.

yes.

cover letter...

Hello
I am currently searching for a job, and my mother spotted your job posting and suggested that I email you.
At my last job I was frequently a cashier, and received several compliments on my quick and cheerful service. I have great people skills, am very flexible, and learn quickly. I ... really hate writing cover letters, because it means I'm blowing my own horn very loudly, and I hate that, but there it is. I don't know what else to say.
I have attached my resume as a PDF file.
I look forward to hearing back from you.

ponderings.

so i was thinking.

sometimes, in the morning when i'm getting dressed, i goth out. black eyeliner, black outfit, etc., et al., so on, and the like.

and then i go places during the day and people go, "oh you're goth? i remember when ________ [friend/i/daughter/son/husband/wife/niece/nephew/sister/brother] was a goth. don't worry, you'll grow out of it."

now hang on just one minute, sir/madam/thing!

a.) i'm not worried.

b.) who says i want to grow out of it?

c.) i already grew out of preppiness. i think i'm good on the "growing-out-of" front.

d.) i have fun being goth. i'm not all depressed all the time (though sometimes i am, but hell, i'm human. everyone's depressed sometimes. you really can't be "up" all the time. something's going to make you sad at some point in your life. call me cynical, but that's life on our planet.)

e.) plus, really, what's so wrong about being goth? i'm not a satanist, i'm not a witch, i don't do self-harm (that's emos) - why would i need to grow out of it? honestly?

f.) http://www.fehq.org/whatgoth.htm

and that's all i have to say about that, for now.

2.2.10

a friendly beast to keep you company.



59% virgin. who knew. and hey are you getting tired of all my memes yet?

Ok, Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then repost as you're __% Virgin. Lowest number you have the more you've done!

1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol.
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. gotten/given a handjob.
8. gotten/given a blowjob.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 95%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 89%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 85%

31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

41. Made Out.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 78%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 74%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 68%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 64%

91. Been mistaken for a teacher.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 59%

1.2.10

backfiring

i don't know what to do with myself.
i'm a little lost kid trying to do the right thing
but somehow it always backfires on me.
and so here i am
sitting and trying to be good
and i don't know who i am, where i am, what to do.
home doesn't feel like home
my space feels wrong
i don't know where i am, i'm lost in the mist
help me

© Elizabeth Klassen 2010

the fight - a meme you've seen before.

yes, this is a repeat from way back in May. but i felt like pulling it out and doing it again, just for the heck of it.

Directions:
1. Put your iPod, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU WOULD SAY?
bullet proof (goo goo dolls)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
if you believe (our lady peace)

WHERE DO YOU STAND IN A CROWD?
farther away (evanescence)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
r. k. intro. (our lady peace)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
til kingdom come (coldplay)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE MOTTO?
universe and u (kt tunstall)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
to the end (my chemical romance)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
i'm not jesus (apocalyptica)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
carpe diem baby (metallica)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
only one (goo goo dolls)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
distraction (apocalyptica)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
42 (coldplay)

WHAT DOES YOUR CRUSH THINK OF YOU?
years go by (hb)

DESCRIBE YOUR SEX LIFE?
heal over (kt tunstall)

HOW DO YOU VIEW THE WORLD?
stray dog (robert pattinson)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
the end of the line (metallica)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
undone (lifehouse)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
swallowed in the sea (coldplay)

WHAT WILL YOUR KIDS SAY ABOUT YOU?
i'll be your baby tonight (bob dylan)

WHAT DID YOUR TEACHERS THINK OF YOU?
another time, another place (u2)

HOW DO YOUR NEIGHBOURS FEEL ABOUT YOU?
homesick (the cure)

HOW WILL YOUR FUTURE TURN OUT?
two hearts beat as one (u2)

WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE SUCCESSFUL?
swords crossed (klaus badelt)

WHAT DO YOU DO DURING THE WEEK?
waiting (fireflight)

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR EX?
bloodless (emery)

HOW DOES YOUR EX FEEL ABOUT YOU?
the unforgiven II (metallica)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
she loves you (the beatles)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
vibe (the rasmus)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
the joke (lifehouse)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
poor twisted me (metallica)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
we can work it out (the beatles)

ARE YOU GOING FAR IN LIFE?
every day (the rasmus)

WHAT IS A TYPICAL WEEKEND FOR YOU?
stroke (apocalyptica)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
the fight (the rasmus)

now what?

so a while back, you may remember, i was bitching about UFV's website. well i did apply for a course, eventually - the CIS program path, starting with CIS 146, intermediate web design - and i got a letter this afternoon from them, with my student ID and instructions for logging in to the website with it, and they're still processing my application.
so i logged in, and discovered i have a UFV email address now and everything. it's kind of exciting and kind of scary at the same time. and i'm just like, "oh wait i did really apply didn't i and what on earth did i get myself into?!?!?!"

oh yeah and i went for a walk this morning and passed a guy with the biggest blackest black eye i ever saw. like he just got hit last night or something, srsly.