i wonder.

sometimes i wonder what it would be like to die.
i wonder whether there's pain first, or whether you can't feel a thing, i wonder whether consciousness disappears, like when you fall asleep, or whether you're aware of everything that's going on, aware of all your cells slowly running down to nothing.
i wonder what it would be like when your body has stopped completely, whether you are watching from inside your head, or whether you watch from somewhere else in the room - or if you even stay in the room; maybe as soon as the last cell has stopped functioning, your soul goes straight to heaven or hell - or limbo, depending what you believe.
would you still be able to feel what's happening to your body after you've left it? would you even care? could you go back as a ghost? would you even want to?
sometimes i wonder what it would be like to die. but i don't want to yet. so it's all good.